SECTUAL

No wonder they're out to get me...

It's that kinda party.

(08-26-2021, 12:20 AM)Mister Obvious Wrote: [ -> ]It reminds me of Marduk's story about how "Marduk came into me when I was 12"...

It's cuz he fucking did.

Of course not actually Marduk, lmao. Like... it wasn't Marduk.

It wasn't what the chatter known as Marduk described either.

But the fucking parallels, man...

Uncanny as hell.

I used to laugh at him, I used to be entertained by his Mardukin stories...

The truth is...

The same fucking thing happened to me when I was 12.

Unbelievable.

And the only reason I haven't thought about this shit sooner and put it all together is because I was so fucking traumatized by the experience...

Everyone around me who knew was totally traumatized and fucked in the head over it.

I had to stuff it way down and act like the shit never happened...

And it's taken me about 18 years to even let myself start to think about it.

I actually went over the entire experience (for the first time) recently...

Probably a few months back now.

I spent a night recounting the entire story from the beginning, out loud (alone of course).

For the first time in my life since it happened.

Long story short, and censored as hell?

An entity came to me and started tutoring me, over the course of days.

After I made the massive mistake of telling people...

The entity left, citing the risk to those peoples' mental health as too great to continue the course.

Never saw or heard from it again.

(08-26-2021, 12:33 AM)Mister Obvious Wrote: [ -> ]The entity left, citing the risk to those peoples' mental health as too great to continue the course.

Because I was 12... just a kid, and they were my caretakers.

Was too dangerous to continue because it would eventually put my own quality of life at risk.

The only thing I'll say about the entity is that it told me it was "Not a ghost, and had never been alive."

Pretty interesting shit...

I'm glad I'm at least old enough and mature enough now to be willing to look at my own experiences without the fear that was once attached to them.

I just don't understand why you lie? When you don't need to.
I mean you take a shit piss don't you? Eat food? Have a shower?
Your lies are but of fools.

(08-26-2021, 12:44 AM)L3CeH Wrote: [ -> ]Your lies are but of fools.

Okay just...

PLEASE don't ever try to sound poetic.

For real.