03-09-2022, 02:14 PM
Holy fricken crap, man...
What a relief.
The older I get, the better I feel.
Now, before you come at me for saying stupid shit, trust me, I know, it all levels out!
We've all seen how frail and decrepit the elderly get, I'm not over here trying to go against logic and reason claiming that being legitimately old feels good or something.
But to just get older, at least as a woman?? God, man, it feels fucking amazing.
Dunno how it is for guys since they can reproduce forever and they never get that 'relief' that comes along with hormonal changes to the body that shitcan their reproductive ability...
I know testosterone does drop off with advanced age, etc. so again I'm not trying to sound ignorant here.
But as I woman, I can only speak on my perspective.
It's so amazing to be free of the sheer hell and torment that insane hormones in youth bring to the table...
As a teenager and as a woman in my 20s, I spent ALL my time obsessed with sex, obsessed with love, obsessed with this airy-fairy nonsense of an idealistic situation of romance that just doesn't exist.
I think it's so sad that in our youth, we're driven toward nothing besides reproduction, even in the most veiled ways.
From actually having sex with people, to just putting on makeup and a slutty outfit and going out in public to get attention...
It's ALL driven by subconscious reproductive desire, the "need" of the body to "make copies" and continue on in the genetic line.
As a female, when you get older, all of that hellish pain and torment starts to die down, and you see that there ACTUALLY IS more to life.
I shit you not, there was a time in my life when I GENUINELY BELIEVED there was nothing more to life than sex. I would even say so, and I remember a bevy of responses from all kinds of different people claiming, um actually, yeah, there is A LOT more to life than sex.
And I thought they were CRAZY. I couldn't IMAGINE it.
What a sad, ever spinning web of bullshit youth is...
Not because it isn't wonderful to have a perfect body, not because it isn't wonderful to be beautiful (everyone is beautiful when they're young, even ugly people)...
But because the hormones that constantly wreak havoc on your body in a cyclical manner put you through so much stress, so many extreme emotions, so much torture...
There's almost never a moment of clarity. There's almost never a moment of peace.
All of the wonderful things about youth are so clouded and obfuscated by the negatives of all those hormones...
It's a shame. I guess that's why they say, "Youth is wasted on the young."
It's so true, because if you could see the diverse and expansive layers to life, if you could see the potentials with the stunning clarity you have when those hormones are out of the way...
JUST THINK of the amazing world we would have. We'd all practically be superheroes with all that experience and wisdom, at a young age with our bodies painless for the most part and in good condition.
But that's not how time/life/nature works. I guess it's too bad, but at the same time...
There's a beautiful plateau that takes place as we age. There's a leveling out and a coasting along that happens where you're not in the darkness and fog of constant longing and yearning.
Hey, I embrace it. I take my supplements, get my exercise in, eat a good diet... I'm doing my best to have a decent old age, if I make it that far. I know life has its seasons and there are always bumps in the road, I've had plenty of family who lived to be 90+ so I've seen what takes place firsthand.
I've seen some mega elderly folks do pretty damn good for their age too. In fact, a lot of the folks who tapped out before age 75 had it the worst... their health failed in a plethora of ways that lead to them dying fairly 'young' for an old person.
Seems like those who make it over 80 are the most 'in good shape' (mentally, and as good as possible physically) and they are the ones who tend to live that extended life. It's like there's some kinda hump to make it over past 70. It's interesting.
Anyway...
Just my musings, thought I would get this down in black and white as another entry in my introspective journal here.
What a relief.
The older I get, the better I feel.
Now, before you come at me for saying stupid shit, trust me, I know, it all levels out!
We've all seen how frail and decrepit the elderly get, I'm not over here trying to go against logic and reason claiming that being legitimately old feels good or something.
But to just get older, at least as a woman?? God, man, it feels fucking amazing.
Dunno how it is for guys since they can reproduce forever and they never get that 'relief' that comes along with hormonal changes to the body that shitcan their reproductive ability...
I know testosterone does drop off with advanced age, etc. so again I'm not trying to sound ignorant here.
But as I woman, I can only speak on my perspective.
It's so amazing to be free of the sheer hell and torment that insane hormones in youth bring to the table...
As a teenager and as a woman in my 20s, I spent ALL my time obsessed with sex, obsessed with love, obsessed with this airy-fairy nonsense of an idealistic situation of romance that just doesn't exist.
I think it's so sad that in our youth, we're driven toward nothing besides reproduction, even in the most veiled ways.
From actually having sex with people, to just putting on makeup and a slutty outfit and going out in public to get attention...
It's ALL driven by subconscious reproductive desire, the "need" of the body to "make copies" and continue on in the genetic line.
As a female, when you get older, all of that hellish pain and torment starts to die down, and you see that there ACTUALLY IS more to life.
I shit you not, there was a time in my life when I GENUINELY BELIEVED there was nothing more to life than sex. I would even say so, and I remember a bevy of responses from all kinds of different people claiming, um actually, yeah, there is A LOT more to life than sex.
And I thought they were CRAZY. I couldn't IMAGINE it.
What a sad, ever spinning web of bullshit youth is...
Not because it isn't wonderful to have a perfect body, not because it isn't wonderful to be beautiful (everyone is beautiful when they're young, even ugly people)...
But because the hormones that constantly wreak havoc on your body in a cyclical manner put you through so much stress, so many extreme emotions, so much torture...
There's almost never a moment of clarity. There's almost never a moment of peace.
All of the wonderful things about youth are so clouded and obfuscated by the negatives of all those hormones...
It's a shame. I guess that's why they say, "Youth is wasted on the young."
It's so true, because if you could see the diverse and expansive layers to life, if you could see the potentials with the stunning clarity you have when those hormones are out of the way...
JUST THINK of the amazing world we would have. We'd all practically be superheroes with all that experience and wisdom, at a young age with our bodies painless for the most part and in good condition.
But that's not how time/life/nature works. I guess it's too bad, but at the same time...
There's a beautiful plateau that takes place as we age. There's a leveling out and a coasting along that happens where you're not in the darkness and fog of constant longing and yearning.
Hey, I embrace it. I take my supplements, get my exercise in, eat a good diet... I'm doing my best to have a decent old age, if I make it that far. I know life has its seasons and there are always bumps in the road, I've had plenty of family who lived to be 90+ so I've seen what takes place firsthand.
I've seen some mega elderly folks do pretty damn good for their age too. In fact, a lot of the folks who tapped out before age 75 had it the worst... their health failed in a plethora of ways that lead to them dying fairly 'young' for an old person.
Seems like those who make it over 80 are the most 'in good shape' (mentally, and as good as possible physically) and they are the ones who tend to live that extended life. It's like there's some kinda hump to make it over past 70. It's interesting.
Anyway...
Just my musings, thought I would get this down in black and white as another entry in my introspective journal here.
