SECTUAL

I know lucid dreaming isn't very popular here, but it's relevant to the following bits to mention that I've been practicing it a lot of late, and have had some very cool discoveries. 

Very early this morning, I woke abruptly from a dream because I came too hard into it with my consciousness in an effort to "go lucid", which is like the lucid dream version of premature ejaculation. But there was a residual effect of coming too hard, and it blew me the fuck away, and I'd like to share it here. 

I "caught" my subconscious writing the dream behind the scenes. I "heard" or "saw" or "intuited" my subconscious jockeying with elements of the dream in an effort to make it more sustainable and believable to me. 

The crux of the dream was that I was camping with two women, and that I was going to share a large sleeping bag with these two women, and that they were going to kill me when I fell asleep. 

My subconscious was rapidly pooling through data, such as:

Women can't be overtly attractive, but just attractive enough
Sleeping bag can't be so large as to be unreal
Conscious must not know that women intend to kill, or how
Method of murder will be stabbing
Conscious will awaken from the dream when the knives begin to stab
Conscious will understand that a murder was committed, but not experienced by conscious

There was so so so much more than this. I mean, that's not even vaguely close to what I'm trying to convey, here. I can't do it justice without more time to meditate on this, or to experience it again. It was like an otherworldly supercomputer pouring though data to exact the ramifications of the dream in a manner that was intended for me to experience for some specific set of reasons. 

I didn't get deep enough into this to learn WHY my subconscious was creating this, but only HOW, which, really, was pretty fucking incredible unto itself.

By the way, I'm fully aware that this could be interpreted as a dream unto itself. In other words, that I merely dreamt that I was catching my subconscious writing a dream for me to experience. So, I'd like to be clear, that this is definitely not that, and, again, I haven't come close to doing the experience any justice (as of this writing).

The subconscious doesn't generally analyze the contents of a dream to ensure the overall narrative makes sense from a rational standpoint. The fact that you observed all of this activity leads me to believe you were consciously sorting the items.

Sounds consistent with my theory about dreams being 'scenarios' and staging grounds to teach certain lessons and have experiences without any real life consequences.

It's easy to fall in love with your own brains.

I mean just knowing it's always computing and even planning out dreams...

How sexy is that??

It's sad that people look for love outside of themselves when they have the whole universe inside them.

I remember once in high school, I solved a math problem in my sleep...

Figures I'd only be able to do math in my dreams?!?