(07-30-2018, 12:30 AM)Trix Wrote: Where Zane is currently is BELOW Slab City. He had to leave the country to get to a place lower than the Slabs. Not saying some inner city shitholes in the USA aren't as bad as the Slabs, they definitely are. But as far as the dregs of society... it doesn't really get lower (vibrationally) than a place like Slab City.
It sounds like he's chosen to take the vibe lower and lower until more and more things become a vibrational mismatch and are taken from his life.
My guess is once they move into the Mexicali crack alley, Country won't last too long... she'll probably try to convince Zane to leave. He probably won't. She'll probably be smart enough to give up, and somehow get back to the Slabs by herself.
Then once she's exited the picture (she's got some level of common sense, she knows the Slabs are better than where she'll soon be with Zane), then the dog will probably be next to exit the picture.
Drugs TrixxiePix will fuck your life up. I was cooking meth for the Hells Angels at 19. You once said I had the capicity to learn? I learned real fucking quick that is no life. It may seem like a rock star life, but it will only end in Premature Death or Prison. They should legalize all drugs to take the criminality and violence out of it. And use the money from the tax to make public information campaigns about what it will fucking do to you. The shit will fuck you up bad and im even talking weed. It will eventually mess with you if you abuse anything.
Everything was put on this Earth for a reason by the divine, but not to be abused.
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Fungistan is right miss trix . you gotta stoinjecting so much fucking heroin and lay off the crackpipe or you will get scabs all overyour body like your hooker mom... We are on your team and this is an intrrvention
Somebody needs to put that 'sweet jane' song to part of this clip where rodney is squeezing mallory . i loves all of you guys and we could become poppy farmers in afghanistan
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Oh I see what it is now...
Zane got butthurt by his wife so now he's changed the plan into something that involves the danger of doing injectable drugs in a disgusting Mexicali alleyway until he dies in order to get back at her.
Very annoying.
I had to look up the ending of Natural Born Killers. They escape out of prison and are last shown in a RV with two kids.
If this not real life NBK ends like that there will be nothing more tragic.
Luckily I think homegirl is too old to reproduce. I do wonder how many kids she has out there who are waiting for their mommy. I do feel bad for her, she came from a guy who physically beat her all the time.
But that’s not how it will end and won’t be as cool to watch as they imagine in their heads. And I’m too sad and tired to make this funny.
He always did want to do heroin.
I guess that’s the moral. Be really fucking careful who you breed with. Don’t listen to what they say. Look at their actions and what they have in their life, what they are doing right then & how they treat and talk about their family and past ex’s.
Any advice for me therapist Trix?
Regarding life in general and kids and kids safety?
I did just realize today my body is so tense all the time from the physical pain the pills and patch try to cover. I’m trying to relax and breath. I guess that could cause extreme bitchyness.
FYI it’s not Natural Born Killers he’s doing its Indiana Jones. And drugs.
And ding ding ding Trix.
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(07-30-2018, 05:30 PM)Guest Wrote: He always did want to do heroin.
Are you FUCKING serious???
This is just leagues beyond depressing.
And I keep trying to tell people that this is probably the worst he's ever been since he's been with you...
Like...
He's probably never been totally homeless (legit sleeping rough), much less hanging out with ANOTHER WOMAN since you guys have been together.
People are trying to underestimate the seriousness of this situation.
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(07-30-2018, 05:30 PM)Guest Wrote: I guess that’s the moral. Be really fucking careful who you breed with. Don’t listen to what they say. Look at their actions and what they have in their life, what they are doing right then & how they treat and talk about their family and past ex’s.
God bless, amen...
Words of wisdom I'm gonna read over and over again, from somebody who fucking KNOWS better than most.
Jesus man, it's chilling.
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(07-30-2018, 05:33 PM)Guest Wrote: Any advice for me therapist Trix?
Regarding life in general and kids and kids safety?
First of all, let's just hug in silence for a moment.
ROFL.
Funny/not funny.
Regarding the kids...
I hate to say it, but there's something hugely wrong in Zane's head.
I'm reminded of the people who can't feel any physical pain (congenital analgesia)...
Only his situation is mental, and it's of the nature that he can't listen to common sense and intuition.
Basically.
He has legitimate mental problems of a very real and severe nature and I have always said this.
I would say that the kids aren't going to be able to depend on him.
If they have a grandparent, better be rooting for that individual to live a long time.
I personally don't even think that his wife is going to die (I'm not saying she isn't sick etc. but I just really don't think she is going to die)...
So there are probably a few wildcards surrounding the kids in that arena. Things could be fine for them regardless of Zane.
Up until his venturing into the absolutely disgusting backalleys of Mexicali where needles are probably just strewn fucking everywhere... I totally would have let him come home anytime and hang out with the kids etc.
But depending on how deep he goes down this absolutely nasty backalley rabbit hole... he won't be safe to have around anymore because he could have contracted something deadly.
He's encroaching on territory which will render him unable to be granted access to the children. And if he tried to come and take the children, he would undoubtedly be arrested before getting there (in an unrelated circumstance). Or he would be arrested after attempting to take the kids.
So... nah, he won't be doing that anytime soon.
Zane is proving to be nothing but selfish and careless, and the things he's said and done on camera will totally turn the kids off him. It's really unfortunate... they'll be scarred for life over the shit that he's said and done on cam.
Because of his actions, he's just not worthy to be having the kids... they're his replacements and we don't need him fucking things up for them.
Nobody wants to see Zane waste away and die from drugs and disease. He needs to choose a better path.
But if he doesn't, fuck him. The children are the important element of this situation and... I think regardless of anybody's plans or intentions, they'll be protected. THAT is where divine protection is...
Not on Zane's sorry ass in a backalley in Mexicali.
Sorry Zane...
Wrong choices.
Thank you. I will read this again and again.
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It's sad to say it, but it looks as though one really must just go with their first intuitive impressions of people.
It's something that people like to debate about because we as humans enjoy flexing the muscle of imagination, and our existence hinges on mating/reproduction, so it makes sense we'd take a fanciful outlook on people who we're attracted to.
You run into somebody like Zane, you immediately know he's headed nowhere good... you call it for what it is, but then you get reeled in anyway.
The only question is how many times are you going to run the cycle and have him prove who he is again before you leave him in the dust?
It's not just Zane... it's all toxic people. How many times do we run through the cycle with them before we just dump 'em and never look back?
Well, ideally, we wouldn't even go through one cycle with them. Ideally we would assess the situation intuitively, and if our first impressions were bad, we wouldn't involve ourselves with that person for even one cycle.
I'm sure after so many bad experiences, a lot of people do get to the place where they don't even bother with people beyond the initial (negative) intuitive assessment.
But it takes some hard lessons before people reach that point of discernment and discipline...
So the only hope is that we don't bind ourselves to people in a permanent kinda way (i.e., by having kids, or by committing other irreversible acts) and that we can leave the lesson relatively unscathed and merely wiser for the wear.
Oh and he always wanted a meth head chic too. Guess how many times he “jokingly” asked me or recommended I do meth.
A lot.
Not even once guys.
Guess he’s just filling those bucket wishes.
Methed out chic - ✅
Heroin - ?
Indiana Jones hat - ?
Treasure - ?
———whines———(will you do my cards? Pretty pleeeaaaseee?)
I mean yes I had low self esteem or still do. But you can see how he would be charming at first right? He would bring me handpicked flowers and bring me home made meals up to my work. Massages. Homemade Thai food at home. He really tried hard at first to woo me. I had never had that before. He love bombed me honestly. Said he loved me way too soon.
It’s easy to get caught up in and ignore stuff that shouldn’t be ignored. He lied about who he really was. It took me a long time to figure it out. And then I went along with all the crazy plans and moving to Oregon, California, Alaska twice, Texas a lot. He did try it on for size. The whole “normal life”.
He says I lied about who I was but I’m not a liar (my mama didn’t raise no liar) plus like what would I lie about? I’m a boring normal person, freak in the sheets. Not much too me. I don’t drink or do drugs ( well before they were rx’ed to me). I do like to eat, I did eat too much. That was my vice/escape/depression. And I got fat and he did stick by me when I was way too fat. And supported my fat surgery. ( I’m not fat now) opposite trying to stay healthy and not get too skinny which it totally weird to a former fatty.
We did create the most beautiful and smart kids though. :))
My oldest is super add and suuuper smart like Zane. He talks about Astro physics and GMOs and at 10 I’m like what?
The 6 yo is the coolest old soul kid ever. Totally funny rockstar and cute!
4yo is super beautiful model princess diva smartness/sassyness ha.
They’re the best.
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(07-30-2018, 06:37 PM)Guest Wrote: Oh and he always wanted a meth head chic too. Guess how many times he “jokingly” asked me or recommended I do meth.
A lot.
That's so fucked up and sad.
Poor guy...
Jesus.
He's so hurt and traumatized from his early life experiences.
Which is just crazy because so many people have had it so much worse and come out way less destructive.
So there's gotta be some level of genetic... misfortune in there.
(07-30-2018, 06:37 PM)Guest Wrote: (will you do my cards? Pretty pleeeaaaseee?)
I totally should.
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(07-30-2018, 06:52 PM)Guest Wrote: I mean yes I had low self esteem or still do. But you can see how he would be charming at first right? He would bring me handpicked flowers and bring me home made meals up to my work. Massages. Homemade Thai food at home. He really tried hard at first to woo me. I had never had that before. He love bombed me honestly. Said he loved me way too soon.
Sounds like he was projecting a lot on you, to be honest.
Between you and Zane...
You're not the one displaying behaviors which would point to "low self-esteem" at this time.
LMAO.
Understatement of the century.
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I know I called you out on being psychologically manipulative with Zane...
But it's all about how people use their abilities.
You could use it to (possibly) steer him in a more useful direction if you thought it out.
My guess is you probably have war-gamed a psychological tactic to steer him in a more positive direction in the past, and it probably didn't work.
The kids are the only important aspect here now, they're more important than Zane or you, because they're your replacements. Once people have kids, they're saying "Here is my replacement. Now I'm expendable." That's just the way it is... that's nature.
You're the only useful one to the kids right now...
By misbehaving, Zane is just knocking his usefulness down into the negative. Little by little.
He really better watch out, because once he is totally useless to them, there's not much keeping him alive in the scheme of nature.
Nobody wants sperm from a dude who's shot up a bunch of heroin... the meth was bad enough, but you start adding injectable drugs into the equation and he's just too damaged to be useful on any level.
He’s been homeless before.
Hell as a family we were homeless in the national park in Cali for 3-4 months living in the original black van he had painted on the front. Did you ever see that van? Of course to the kids we were “camping”.
It kinda was like camping. Beautiful scenery. We would get food from the food banks and one of those places had free showers. We spent many a days at the library. Those were always his most favorite times.
Him not working and us homeless/hanging out in the National Park. We had 2 kids then and I was pregnant. I prefer a tad more security. But you know when you get to that point you don’t tell anyone cause 1 I was embarrassed and 2 scared the kids would be taken away to foster care. Shit just gets bad slow. Like a frog in a slow boiling pot. And it’s too bad to tell anyone else, ya know? You just do what you gotta do.
He’s blocked me and ignoring me. I guess I could try this platform if he still reads. Let me meditate first and get rid of my anger before I respond to him. How do I let go of anger? It’s consumimg me.
I’m the only person at chemo without a spouse. He’s supossed to be here. The kids constant reminders. Can daddy call? I dunno honey. Can daddy FaceTime? Soon honey. When is our daddy daughter date? I dunno love. Will daddy be here for Halloween? And on.......
I don’t think I know how I do it? I mean before I knew how to get stuff, trade for like sex stuff. But obviously ten foot pole nowadays. I dunno I’m not smart. I just say what I feel which obv gets me into trouble. Hmm help me!
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