Christmas eve with a side of past life friendship

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"Okay, so my mother in law is a bit weird. Pay no attention to her" says a past lover. I nodded, ive been around that before. Big whoop. We pull in to a gated community in Allen, Tx. The type of place we would go vandalize out of jealousy as kids. The uncomfortable first meeting of ones family members can be odd. Do i be myself, do i try and appease? I take a swig of whiskey to calm my nerves a bit. As we walk in, the wafting smell of Christmas is abundant.  Kids playing. Adults listening to country holiday tunes...the stereotypical rich cowboy decor is proudly displayed. Fuck. This is NOT my type of place. It has that, im rich but still Texan vibe. A glass is dropped and shatters in the kitchen.

     It was granny. A small, fragile woman. Withered by time, but extremely well dressed in jewelry that probably costs more than what i make in a year. Her eyes locked intensely on ME. Oh jesus christ, here we go. It must be my tattoos. At the time, hair to my ass which i tied up to seem less abrasive.  She has not stopped looking at me. Not even sure if she has blinked. I make my way around the room, introducing myself. I can still feel grannies stare beaming on me like a magnifying glass in the middle of a Texas july day. I have to get to the bottom of this. 

    I make my way to the kitchen and her face goes from shock, to joy.  Her eyes welled up with a gleaming sparkle. Hello ma'am, my name is ******. Its a pleasure to meet you. I dust off my best southern charm, just like my mema taught me as a kid. I continue to make my rounds, but her demeanor is in the back of my mind. A kiss on the cheek, and my woman goes to chat with her sisters. I move back to  the kitchen. "How is your christmas going so fa"-she cuts me off. "I know you. I can't believe its really YOU" . Okay, now im a bit taken back. Lady, you got my attention....

     It is loud. Dwight Yokam blares painfully through the intergrated sound system throughout the house. "Will you go smoke i cigarette with me". Yes ma'am. Of course. We lock arms and i help her up the back patio. "I knew i would see you again" she exclaimed.  I ask her if we have met. She said, "yes. We were traveling the Sierras , and you got ran over. Ive missed you so much". It felt like i was hit with a lightning bolt. I have rarely been creeped out in my life, but every hair on my body stands. My jaws clench. What in the fuck did she just say?? !! 

    I have heard crazy rants from those mentally unravelling before. This is NOT the case. This lady is sharp as a razors edge. I laugh it off at first, but her intensity is far from a joke. She looked me dead in my eyes and told me, "you have been wandering in the dark this whole time. I see you. You have been missed dearly" her hands felt electrified as she grabbed my face gently. She was seeing through me. Right fucking through me. I cant hold back the tears, the intensity feels like i was about to explode. She smiled and said, "its okay. You are walking to the light. Keep going." She pulls out a little wooden dugout...shit granny give me that. You just blew my lid off my shoulders.  I go from dismissal,  to a form of terror, to joy. Like i have just reconnected with a life long friend

  We chat about everything. We laugh. I listen to her wise and AWESOME stories.  About her. About me. Her son comes out, and says "mom, dont bother him. He doesnt want to hear your silly stories". I look dead at her and say no, i absolutely do! At this point im over the party. Keep your Christmas ham. Take my white elephant number i honestly do not care. She pulls out photos, shows me black and white photos of her tribe. Family. She is a high elder of the choctaw nation. I notice how people in her own family, by marriage, almost dismiss her "ramblings" as early dementia.  It deeply offends me, i dont even know if they understand this woman and her power. 

    The night winds down, we go inside. She has clearly had a bit too much smoke. I could have sat up until sunrise talking with this woman. Her mystic power had me beyond captivated.  We say our goodbyes, the whole ride home i didnt say a word. Lost in thought. It felt SO real. Her sincerity was hyperfocused. When she looked into my eyes, i almost heard her speaking in my mind. This was going on 3 Christmas holidays ago. I will never shake that night. 

   My point for posting is this....does anyone believe this is possible as well. Can someone be so in tune with the universe they can recognize past energy? I know it may sound rediculous to some. Its fine, if i read this i may as well. This was REAL. To every god damn strand of DNA i have in my body, i believe her. She knew things about me that no one has EVER said outloud. Ever. I thought it was interesting to ask. Ive never brought it up, but i am extremely curious how others may feel. Or if they have had similar situations.

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...the stereotypical rich cowboy decor is proudly displayed.

I can still feel grannies stare beaming on me like a magnifying glass in the middle of a Texas july day.

OMG I can feel it too, LOL!!!

she cuts me off. "I know you. I can't believe its really YOU"

WHOOOOOOOA.

She said, "yes. We were traveling the Sierras , and you got ran over. Ive missed you so much".

She pulls out photos, shows me black and white photos of her tribe. Family. She is a high elder of the choctaw nation.

Oh HELL yeah!!! That’s what I’m talkin’ about!!! Now it all makes sense!!! I love this story!!!

I notice how people in her own family, by marriage, almost dismiss her "ramblings" as early dementia.  I deeply offends me, i dont even know if they understand this woman and her power. 

It’s pretty mind blowing how totally ignorant people can be, isn’t it? I agree with your deduction of the situation. Even if she was starting to “lose it” a little bit, I think that it’s really just seeing through the veil. I’ve heard it theorized that people with dementia are really just slowly transitioning from the earth plane to the next dimension, spending less and less time in their bodies. It makes sense to me.

Her sincerity was hyperfocused. When she looked into my eyes, i almost heard her speaking in my mind.

This would tie in with the ‘through the veil’ theory.

   My point for posting is this....does anyone believe this is possible as well. Can someone be so in tune with the universe they can recognize past energy? I know it may sound rediculous to some. Its fine, if i read this i may as well. This was REAL. To every god damn strand of DNA i have in my body, i believe her. She knew things about me that no one has EVER said outloud. Ever. I thought it was interesting to ask. Ive never brought it up, but i am extremely curious how others may feel. Or if they have had similar situations.

Oh there’s no question that it’s possible...

The only question is whether she was always able to see all those things, or if she was able to see them now due to a more recent change in her perception.

My guess that you’re special and presented her an opportunity to share and she probably rarely gets that opportunity with most people/in most situations.

Sounds like she recognized a very specific archetype in you. Apparently she’d had a lot of experience with that specific type. Would also explain why she knew so much about you. Archetypes seem to have similar stories/patterns/details about them.

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Know thyself...

They don’t say it for no reason.

Through knowing yourself and your own patterns/attractions, you can understand what the reality matrix is presenting to you at any given time.

She probably knows herself and her own patterns/cycles, which better helped her to recognize you.

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Wow, so much of this makes SO much sense. Thank you so much, i am going to look into this theory for SURE. what you say about dementia,  is absolutely fucking fascinating.  Seriously.  I am beyond thrilled to look into this. 

I often wondered that, too. If this was something she possesed, or what. Some nights it just hits me. It wasnt the typical " did someone pass away in your family with a letter M in the name" shit. Like, inner dialogue from trauma i will go the grave with. There is no earthly "logical" explanation . Key word, earthly. This is precisely why i posted here. There are really amazing people, including yourself, that i really respect their intuition and knowledge.  I have never been to the sierras. For weeks after i would have flashes of mountain ranges fitting that area. It really left me with so many questions. So many possibilities .

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Know thyself...

They don’t say it for no reason.

Through knowing yourself and your own patterns/attractions, you can understand what the reality matrix is presenting to you at any given time.

She probably knows herself and her own patterns/cycles, which better helped her to recognize you.

It is funny you say that. That is exactly why i started writing a couple weeks ago. I feel like if i can catalog certain things i can maybe see my downfalls. My patterns. Even know who i am. Know thy self...that is a very important goal we all need to attain

[Mister Obvious]

Well it’s also important to remember...

If she really did have a friend who got run over while they were on vacation, that’s pretty damn traumatizing.

Even if it was like 50 years ago, doesn’t matter.

It’s possible you look a lot like him and she figured it was some of his essence in you coming around again to say hello to her...

That’s probably why she decided to guide his essence to the light.

So you served your purpose in her life (and she in yours), and now you go on continuing to live your own story.

We all have passengers, at least that’s my personal belief. I don’t think all of them necessarily stay forever. Some do, not all.

I wrote about the passenger concept here:

http://www.sectual.com/thread-6223.html

Although it’s not entirely relevant to your story, it does run along a similar line.

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Hell yeah im about to check this thread out. I have spent so many hours thinking of this. I get that alot, oh you look like someone i know...which is totally valid. The only thing, she knew one specific thing that really hung me up. Which there were about 4 things, but one in particular.  Something that changed my whole perspective on life as i know it, and she knew exactly what was said in my mind. Exactly to the motherfucking word. There is not a chance in hell no one could possibly ever know that. A trillion in one would be a gross understatement. Wrapping my mind around it is like trying to ponder how big space is. I wish i could have kept contact,  but honestly i dont think thst was supposed to happen honestly

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I had a lady’s spirit use me as a vessel to see one of her relatives...

She was born around 1900 and died around 1992. Circa 2006 she hitched a ride with me to see who I assume was probably her great grandson or some other type of relative like that.

She showed me a vision (in a dream) of her large family and how much she loved them... the grandchildren especially.

For some reason it meant a lot to her to see this particular one.

While she was conducting this business, I had many dreams about her relative. I’ve never dreamed about somebody that many times, before or since. He worked at a local grocery store and that’s where I’d see him now and then.

Anyway, in the final dream I had about him, she (as me) told him she thought she’d never see him “again” and was grateful to have had the chance to.

After that, she was done, but we’ve remained friends over the years.

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I wrote about the passenger concept here:

http://www.sectual.com/thread-6223.html

Although it’s not entirely relevant to your story, it does run along a similar line.

Okay, that just absolutely exploded my mind, MO. I have never heard of the dark passenger. I feel like that explains SO MUCH for me personally. SO MUCH SENSE! Thank you so much for shooting this over to me. Exactly what kind of feedback i was hoping for. Let the dark passenger wormhole reasearch, commense.

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I wonder if maybe that is what happened. Closure for her possibly? I think,by her actions, it was a past lover. She did make a few questionable advances, but i was not offended. I could see something was going on in her. It was traveling through me. Wow. This is really touching me, i cannot tell how confused i have been over this. So much is making sense to me. When you told your story, so many little details just connected.

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I am SO glad i decided to apprehensively post this . This has really brought alot to light for me.  Things i have never even contemplated