"my chair broke"

[Guest]

Well for better or worse, I think we both truly mean everything we say...

I don't think we do. If you met me, you'd see I'm always making wisecracks. Just talking shit to hear myself talk. Because it sounds funny in my head when I'm saying it. I say "yo mama" to almost everything I hear.

I'm guessing you have an odd sense of humor that most people don't get as well.

So there's a sort of dualistic good/evil, necessary light/shadow kinda thingy going on if you wanna look at from a woo-woo spiritual kinda perspective. Which I do enjoy doing!

There's more to that than you think. Everyone is constantly projecting their dark side onto other people. Things about ourselves that we're not comfortable admitting to ourselves automatically get projected onto the nearest available oddball. I think there's a lot of that going on between you and me. It's an unconscious process largely beyond our control. Very rare to catch oneself in the act and stop it.

I was usually the smartest kid in class when I was in school. I wasn't into the same things most kids were into, and they didn't understand the things I was into. I guess my being an unknown quantity made them uncomfortable. They were always saying things like the following:

"You're gay." False. Buttfuckery is repulsive to me. I'm obsessed with tits and pussy.

"You're on drugs." False. I was 22 years old before I tried drugs for the first time.

"You're crazy." Maybe. Or maybe I'm just different and people don't know how to take it. My stepmom describes me as "off-center," whatever that means. She actually projected some dark pretty shit onto me one time because she didn't think my responses to whatever she was saying were emotional enough. I think she was intentionally trying to get my goat, and I was having none of it. I don't like melodrama and don't see any point in faking sentimentality during what should be a rational conversation. That would be too much like virtue signalling.