03-23-2021, 12:45 PM
Something I thought worth mentioning: that's my King Soopers, meaning it's the one closest to my house and I go there frequently, though lately I've been ordering from Amazon because it saves me so much time and money, plus keeps me out of the stores which I like, not because of covid but because, if I may quote Charles Bukowski again - "It's not that I hate people; I just feel a lot better when they're not around".
Anyway, being in close proximity and seeing the press conference live from afar, it feels so very different from seeing it on TV. It's like a different reality entirely.
On TV it's like theater, or a show, it allows us to be a step or two removed from the reality.
The vibe there around that center was just so heavy, and it branched out throughout the city. I'll go ahead and say that the general mood was that of actual despair. I've never experienced anything like it, so it was eye opening. The reality is so much more grim and depressing then what we feel when watching it on TV, that you start to understand the meaning of words like "senseless" and "tragic", because that's actually the energy that is present. It effected me so much that I woke up this morning feeling like I had lost a loved one; absolute grieving. I mean I woke up and the feeling was already there, waiting for me.
Also, I feel more directly... not threatened, but aware that nobody is really safe. I'm kind of into knives, not to sound creepy, but I've just always found knives to be cool. Not cutlery or hunting knives, but knives that are meant to be used as weapons in a fight. I have some fairly nice/beautiful blades, if I may brag. So, you know, I've got my knives out in more than a figurative sense. Not that it would be of much use against an AR, but hey, I can throw the fuck out of a knife, so there's at least some tiny shred of hope there.
Anyway, being in close proximity and seeing the press conference live from afar, it feels so very different from seeing it on TV. It's like a different reality entirely.
On TV it's like theater, or a show, it allows us to be a step or two removed from the reality.
The vibe there around that center was just so heavy, and it branched out throughout the city. I'll go ahead and say that the general mood was that of actual despair. I've never experienced anything like it, so it was eye opening. The reality is so much more grim and depressing then what we feel when watching it on TV, that you start to understand the meaning of words like "senseless" and "tragic", because that's actually the energy that is present. It effected me so much that I woke up this morning feeling like I had lost a loved one; absolute grieving. I mean I woke up and the feeling was already there, waiting for me.
Also, I feel more directly... not threatened, but aware that nobody is really safe. I'm kind of into knives, not to sound creepy, but I've just always found knives to be cool. Not cutlery or hunting knives, but knives that are meant to be used as weapons in a fight. I have some fairly nice/beautiful blades, if I may brag. So, you know, I've got my knives out in more than a figurative sense. Not that it would be of much use against an AR, but hey, I can throw the fuck out of a knife, so there's at least some tiny shred of hope there.
