06-08-2021, 12:36 PM
Stopped by Katie's channel yesterday to see what she's been up to. She looks very pretty and whatnot as usual.
Apparently she's been living in an apartment for 1.5 years now, and isn't sure she ever does wanna live in her car again.
But what I didn't enjoy hearing about was the worsening of her depression... I couldn't help but think about my own experiences as she was speaking.
It occurred to me that there could be a very real reason for her depression that is outside of any trauma or other kinda stuff she may have experienced. I think she could have a hormonal imbalance, or she could simply be experiencing her body's urges to reproduce, and its punishment of her when she doesn't... check out my thread about severe PMS and how I reached some of these conclusions: https://www.sectual.com/thread-16741-pos...#pid140007
Yup, essentially...
My conclusion is that myself and other women who have severe PMS (PMDD) are being punished by our bodies for not reproducing, and that the symptoms could get worse and worse until the childbearing years are over... but there may not even be a real end to it even after that time. For real.
I know this shit is hard to hear as a female who struggles with extreme depression... but it really is a possibility that needs to be considered.
So I'm thinking all this while I'm watching her video, considering whether I should post my theory... and then she gets to the question about whether or not she wants kids, and she definitively answers that she does not want to have any children.
I couldn't help but think that these things are related, and that Katie may not be able to expect her depression to get better if this is what's causing it.
Do I think she needs to go out and reproduce just to make the depression (maybe) stop? No, hell no. Same as I don't really want to have any kids, I can understand Katie's feelings... the answer isn't just to reproduce in a desperate bid to stop these agonizing feelings.
Ultimately... I think that the hormonal cascade of depression that wreaks hell in our lives may stop if we reproduced, but it would then be replaced with (likely) equally hard emotions that result from what our life situation would become if we had to be responsible for the survival of our offspring.
