06-05-2017, 12:11 AM
Not only is there a linguistic disconnect and a problem with her vision...
She's got a disconnect with her body going on too.
I'm not harping on her over these observations... I'm studying this case. It's that simple.
Take her nails for example. She's a damn BEAUTY GURU. That's the category this chick fits into before all this happened...
In that second video, her nails are screwed up. They're varying lengths, one of them isn't even painted, etc. There is NO WAY she would go on camera with her nails all messed up. Definitely not. She probably has issues even perceiving her own body now. You can tell she does. At 5:49 in that second video, she talks about pulling her body up off the floor. It's like... there's a detachment, I don't know how else to explain it. It's like... there's her consciousness, her personality behind the outer shell. And it's having difficulty fusing with the outside world, which INCLUDES the body. The outer world.
Check out her skin, you can especially tell in this video:
It's all red and fucked up. I dunno why... it doesn't really look like a sunburn. I dunno, she's been through some TRAUMA. She has been straight up fucking traumatized, there's no nice way to put it. She has been through the RINGER.
And they're about to fuck her up even worse with that stupid radiation.
I want to follow this chick's progression and whatnot, but the whole radiation thing really pisses me off. Hugely. I think radiation is what kills people, chemo kills... without the chemo, there might be a chance of getting better. I think a lot of times, chemo just seals the deal. It's like... people live DESPITE having chemo. That's my opinion.
I want to keep up with her because the whole cognitive aspect of this is really fascinating and I want to see if I can figure things out, if she improves, etc. But I DO NOT want to see her in a state of illness. Radiation is terrible.
She's got a disconnect with her body going on too.
I'm not harping on her over these observations... I'm studying this case. It's that simple.
Take her nails for example. She's a damn BEAUTY GURU. That's the category this chick fits into before all this happened...
In that second video, her nails are screwed up. They're varying lengths, one of them isn't even painted, etc. There is NO WAY she would go on camera with her nails all messed up. Definitely not. She probably has issues even perceiving her own body now. You can tell she does. At 5:49 in that second video, she talks about pulling her body up off the floor. It's like... there's a detachment, I don't know how else to explain it. It's like... there's her consciousness, her personality behind the outer shell. And it's having difficulty fusing with the outside world, which INCLUDES the body. The outer world.
Check out her skin, you can especially tell in this video:
It's all red and fucked up. I dunno why... it doesn't really look like a sunburn. I dunno, she's been through some TRAUMA. She has been straight up fucking traumatized, there's no nice way to put it. She has been through the RINGER.
And they're about to fuck her up even worse with that stupid radiation.
I want to follow this chick's progression and whatnot, but the whole radiation thing really pisses me off. Hugely. I think radiation is what kills people, chemo kills... without the chemo, there might be a chance of getting better. I think a lot of times, chemo just seals the deal. It's like... people live DESPITE having chemo. That's my opinion.
I want to keep up with her because the whole cognitive aspect of this is really fascinating and I want to see if I can figure things out, if she improves, etc. But I DO NOT want to see her in a state of illness. Radiation is terrible.
