Trix i recall you saying several times you only partake of bread which is not fresh , is this because you are avoiding the sin of gluttony ? ... because the amazing smell of fresh bread can cause us to sin and stuff our body . I think you are amazing and we can become much closer to God by avoiding the seven deadly's and also self punishment is useful
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Self-flagellation
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Self-flagellation