07-30-2018, 06:52 PM
I mean yes I had low self esteem or still do. But you can see how he would be charming at first right? He would bring me handpicked flowers and bring me home made meals up to my work. Massages. Homemade Thai food at home. He really tried hard at first to woo me. I had never had that before. He love bombed me honestly. Said he loved me way too soon.
It’s easy to get caught up in and ignore stuff that shouldn’t be ignored. He lied about who he really was. It took me a long time to figure it out. And then I went along with all the crazy plans and moving to Oregon, California, Alaska twice, Texas a lot. He did try it on for size. The whole “normal life”.
He says I lied about who I was but I’m not a liar (my mama didn’t raise no liar) plus like what would I lie about? I’m a boring normal person, freak in the sheets. Not much too me. I don’t drink or do drugs ( well before they were rx’ed to me). I do like to eat, I did eat too much. That was my vice/escape/depression. And I got fat and he did stick by me when I was way too fat. And supported my fat surgery. ( I’m not fat now) opposite trying to stay healthy and not get too skinny which it totally weird to a former fatty.
It’s easy to get caught up in and ignore stuff that shouldn’t be ignored. He lied about who he really was. It took me a long time to figure it out. And then I went along with all the crazy plans and moving to Oregon, California, Alaska twice, Texas a lot. He did try it on for size. The whole “normal life”.
He says I lied about who I was but I’m not a liar (my mama didn’t raise no liar) plus like what would I lie about? I’m a boring normal person, freak in the sheets. Not much too me. I don’t drink or do drugs ( well before they were rx’ed to me). I do like to eat, I did eat too much. That was my vice/escape/depression. And I got fat and he did stick by me when I was way too fat. And supported my fat surgery. ( I’m not fat now) opposite trying to stay healthy and not get too skinny which it totally weird to a former fatty.
