10-10-2018, 04:26 PM
Of course I’ve acknowledged his fear and pain. You conviently choose not to post those ones. I’m Gemini of course I can see and understand why all this is happening. But at the end of the day he’s still not sober or a suitable parent for me to feel relief that he will be able to care for them properly when I die. Zane does what he wants to do. Always has, always will. And for the most part I was able to come along for the ride. But now I need him. It can’t always be just about him, throws balance off. I need love and support right now and I get hate and anger. And the thought that the last 13 years of my life wasn’t real, that he didn’t love me because I’m not his twin soul or whatever. Kinda stings I’ll admit. Which I’m sure is his intended purpose.
