05-20-2018, 08:52 PM
there is a type of light that can never be perceived by our eyes or by devices we create. it is a glimmering, golden, opalescent, viscous type of light that is reminiscent of honey. i discovered this type of light quite a while ago... over a decade at this point. i want to say there's an intelligence and awareness to this light, but those terms are woefully inadequate. it was extraordinarily difficult to allow this light into my being. as it approached my crown, i experienced the most pleasure i ever have, but relishing in this pleasure only served to scare it away. even recognizing this, i could not let it in the second time either, as the pleasure was again magnified a significant amount when it made contact with the top of my organism. undaunted and by the grace of infinity, the third time i successfully let it descend to my inner eye and radiate throughout the entirety of my being. so powerful was this experience that i could not describe it to anyone for years without falling into a state of pure, unadulterated bliss and joy. that is our true, natural state. this feeling of emptiness you speak of - it too is illusion. you are not lacking anything. you are already whole. you need no mates, no love, no trinkets. the more you attempt to fill that imaginary void, the more you crave and need the transient pseudo-fillers. that is the trap.
