05-20-2018, 09:18 PM
i was in that type of mindset and heartset well prior to the experience above, about 20 years ago. instead of physically killing myself, i killed myself internally through will. that was my journey into the void, which turned out to not be a void. upon reaching that core, i was shown the progression of my life for the next 10 or so years [from that point] and saw that it wasn't anywhere near as bad as i had felt it would be. carrying on after that was effortless.
i do not subscribe to the bible, it is wrought with mistranslations, omissions, conflations, and trickery. that being said, my paternal family legend is that we descend from the centurion that wielded the spear of destiny on the crucified. i happen to have a birth mark at the point of impact as well.
https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/c...co_027.jpg
i was told that i constantly asked about god, the stars, and space when i was a toddler. i don't remember much of that aside from the family legend part, which i vividly remember. that shocked me and made me feel guilty.
i do not subscribe to the bible, it is wrought with mistranslations, omissions, conflations, and trickery. that being said, my paternal family legend is that we descend from the centurion that wielded the spear of destiny on the crucified. i happen to have a birth mark at the point of impact as well.
https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/c...co_027.jpg
i was told that i constantly asked about god, the stars, and space when i was a toddler. i don't remember much of that aside from the family legend part, which i vividly remember. that shocked me and made me feel guilty.
