I modeled this after the gender fluid concept which is okay by me, whatever you want to believe but when you're state of mind creates
a law that effects my reality to the point I may have to pay my cash for offending your mental construct solidified by actual laws... I have a problem.
Here's what I posted to the "transgender" community. Zero responses. Enjoy!
I am constantly called crazy. No one believes me even though I have been told the tests (The Stanford-Binet and Wechsler Adult Intelligence Scale ) say I'm "gifted" but it feels more like a curse.
I have been stalked and harassed on Reddit so I have this account for safety purposes.
I have to take different medications but they only make me tired and do not get rid of the different states of mind I have.
We all have our hard luck stories and I ask a lot of questions that people say are crazy but I am curious a curious being and it's one of my natures.
Why science hasn't answered them? The questions seem simple to me; they are about simple things.
That is a concise background and very little revealed. I am a non-binary mentally divergent poly-fluidic person.
I think I have the same rights as others who have a form of dysphoria have.
Someone asked me if I was "okay" because he said I had weird posts after looking at my post history. I admit, that triggered me when he assumed by non-binary mentally divergent fluidic state.
By asking a binary question regarding my mental state and implying I wasn't okay to begin with resulted in me feeling that I was offended. I am seeking others who may be suffering in silence as I am.
I think if we work together that we can legislate laws to help protect us from discrimination and predatory assholes or just uninformed or disrespectful people, from making us suffer even more.
It should NOT be "okay" to assume my non-binary mental divergent fluidic state by asking me "Are you okay?"
That statement in the form of questioning is implying that I'm not okay using a what I've termed a binary logic trapping method for exploiting the mentally divergent.
I experience them, poly-states of divergence, without controlling it.
This lack of control happens because of situational and verbal triggers in what people consider normal questions, statements or presentations presenting only black and white, right or wrong, etc options.
I honestly think normal is status quo and there is not a scientific nor socially precise state defined as normal to my knowledge aside from common sense which is practicing the golden rule-an ephemeral and spectral concept with multiple applications and multiple interpretations all which result in peace, love, unity, respect for each other, our planet.
It seems all relative.
One thing that isn't relative and remains constant is the fact that I am these ways. If no one here can relate, as fellow people whom feel out of place in their own bodies and I feel out of place in my own mind maybe you know someone like me and can point me in the direction where we may fellowship. When I'm alone; I need to recharge emotionally from a constantly draining society.
I the need to diverge into the electromagnetic arches of biochemical dendritic synaptic pathway tributaries which flow like dripping fractals from inverted holographic neon volcanoes in the skies instead of clouds.
They recharge me.
Sorry. I got lost for a second but please remember this. If you can relate please spread the word.
It's offensive to people like me suffering from mental divergence and the fact that it's fluidic and non binary, seemingly.
"It's Not Okay To Ask Me If I'm Okay"
Also that is not me in the picture, he is just my hero even though he comes from a work of fiction.
Although travelling into the electromagnetic arches of biochemical dendritic synaptic pathway tributaries which flow like dripping fractals from inverted holographic neon volcanoes in the skies instead of clouds seems a totally convincing reality for me in every way facet. I know it is just a construct of my mind.
I am non-binary mentally divergent fluidic because I am avoiding dealing with certain unnamed issues with realities that have emotionally debilitated my life here.
When I stop traveling into electromagnetic arches of biochemical dendritic synaptic pathway tributaries which flow like dripping fractals from inverted holographic neon volcanoes in the skies instead of clouds I will be better if that every is attainable.
I am taking an experimental medicine called esketamine which helps me focus on what seems most real and my parents are thankfully supportive. Others are not and I have been used to this since childhood.
I would enjoy sitting in the fields wondering if I could catch things that would fall out of the sky for hours and I could see them sometimes but never catch them. Now I am in a major city and cannot leave my home. I am an only child and feel like I am going to stay where my mind takes me forever sometimes and the medicines are losing their ability to help.
Please remember:
"It's Not Okay to Ask Me If I'm Okay"
Unless you know someone and they do not suffer from a condition similar to mine then please do not ask them.
No one takes us seriously and it only spreads the mocking of our conditions.
I stay away from people but I feel even more lost without my field to sit in.
My parents suggested a support group and thought it would help but but I can't find any after "trying" to fit in on my other account.
I always ended up just being myself.
If you don't know about this condition it's like a shape shifting virus in that my mind's reality which shifts periodically in multiple stages and states of divergence at once.
Sometimes it is slow, sometimes it is fast, sometimes velocity is modulating from a control source unknown.
If I'm not someone or something that you can relate to please feel free to point me in the right direction.
I'm not going to a psychology based sub. The clinicians and technicians keep telling me to see a neurologist or a neuropsychologist or psychiatrists and I've seen them all my life and I've been labeled "therapy-resistant" hence the esketamine nasal sprays.
Each mental health professional has given me a different diagnosis and a different batch of assorted medicine that just make me tired and over weight and sleep most of the day.
I dream of a world that will accommodate my condition.
I dream of a world within a world where I can be well again.
Until that day happens I can only deal day to day with my issues. I have lost so much and so many people and potential friends because I am me. I do not hurt people. I am not dangerous. I do not understand why people can't accept me for what I am. I am all that I am and nothing more and nothing less-maybe. I don't think I need more meds.
I need more acceptance.
Every time I try to fit in I inevitably become myself and the protective layers I build to construct a composite of myself that seems socially acceptable, something or someone triggers break me and brick by brick my protective layers crumble to dust.
"It's Not Okay to Ask Us if We're Okay."
Thank you in advance for any suggestions, kind words, etc. I am going sane and that is not where I want to go until I am okay. I see what "sane people have done to our world, our society, to each other.
Cognitive behavioral therapy, Mindfulness, Dialectic Behavioral Therapy, Psilocybin micro dosing, atpyical anti-psychotics, mood stabilizers, anti-depressants, prescribed amphetamines, vodka, pot, nothing helps.
I don't understand and feel paranoid or metanoid but paralyzed to do anything about it.
I'm desperate and dosed. I know lots of stuff about a lot of things and if I can maintain focus then I will not drift.
Thank you all in advance. I can answer any questions as long as they are not yes or no questions or anything binary.
It sets me off and it happens all over again. Thanks for the respect.
(edited because it was late and being alone it was hard to be coherent and reading it today I saw it maybe needed adjustments)
[Image: http://img3.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20140...ington.jpg]
Lol. This was a "thought" experiment I posted before the COVID-AI thing broke out. Imagine if laws were accommodated for the "mentally divergent." There would be no need for a 3rd bathroom. They would just hallucinate one and have laws to protect them from pooping in their bosses coffee cup on a desk because of their "condition."
This oozing insanity that was once only in the mind (it's okay to be screwed up) made it's way out and into the actual laws. I can get sued for assuming gender?
Someone can get sued for asking be a binary question! lol
This is why there must be "order" restored. The Adjustment Bureau....
a law that effects my reality to the point I may have to pay my cash for offending your mental construct solidified by actual laws... I have a problem.
Here's what I posted to the "transgender" community. Zero responses. Enjoy!
I am constantly called crazy. No one believes me even though I have been told the tests (The Stanford-Binet and Wechsler Adult Intelligence Scale ) say I'm "gifted" but it feels more like a curse.
I have been stalked and harassed on Reddit so I have this account for safety purposes.
I have to take different medications but they only make me tired and do not get rid of the different states of mind I have.
We all have our hard luck stories and I ask a lot of questions that people say are crazy but I am curious a curious being and it's one of my natures.
Why science hasn't answered them? The questions seem simple to me; they are about simple things.
That is a concise background and very little revealed. I am a non-binary mentally divergent poly-fluidic person.
I think I have the same rights as others who have a form of dysphoria have.
Someone asked me if I was "okay" because he said I had weird posts after looking at my post history. I admit, that triggered me when he assumed by non-binary mentally divergent fluidic state.
By asking a binary question regarding my mental state and implying I wasn't okay to begin with resulted in me feeling that I was offended. I am seeking others who may be suffering in silence as I am.
I think if we work together that we can legislate laws to help protect us from discrimination and predatory assholes or just uninformed or disrespectful people, from making us suffer even more.
It should NOT be "okay" to assume my non-binary mental divergent fluidic state by asking me "Are you okay?"
That statement in the form of questioning is implying that I'm not okay using a what I've termed a binary logic trapping method for exploiting the mentally divergent.
I experience them, poly-states of divergence, without controlling it.
This lack of control happens because of situational and verbal triggers in what people consider normal questions, statements or presentations presenting only black and white, right or wrong, etc options.
I honestly think normal is status quo and there is not a scientific nor socially precise state defined as normal to my knowledge aside from common sense which is practicing the golden rule-an ephemeral and spectral concept with multiple applications and multiple interpretations all which result in peace, love, unity, respect for each other, our planet.
It seems all relative.
One thing that isn't relative and remains constant is the fact that I am these ways. If no one here can relate, as fellow people whom feel out of place in their own bodies and I feel out of place in my own mind maybe you know someone like me and can point me in the direction where we may fellowship. When I'm alone; I need to recharge emotionally from a constantly draining society.
I the need to diverge into the electromagnetic arches of biochemical dendritic synaptic pathway tributaries which flow like dripping fractals from inverted holographic neon volcanoes in the skies instead of clouds.
They recharge me.
Sorry. I got lost for a second but please remember this. If you can relate please spread the word.
It's offensive to people like me suffering from mental divergence and the fact that it's fluidic and non binary, seemingly.
"It's Not Okay To Ask Me If I'm Okay"
Also that is not me in the picture, he is just my hero even though he comes from a work of fiction.
Although travelling into the electromagnetic arches of biochemical dendritic synaptic pathway tributaries which flow like dripping fractals from inverted holographic neon volcanoes in the skies instead of clouds seems a totally convincing reality for me in every way facet. I know it is just a construct of my mind.
I am non-binary mentally divergent fluidic because I am avoiding dealing with certain unnamed issues with realities that have emotionally debilitated my life here.
When I stop traveling into electromagnetic arches of biochemical dendritic synaptic pathway tributaries which flow like dripping fractals from inverted holographic neon volcanoes in the skies instead of clouds I will be better if that every is attainable.
I am taking an experimental medicine called esketamine which helps me focus on what seems most real and my parents are thankfully supportive. Others are not and I have been used to this since childhood.
I would enjoy sitting in the fields wondering if I could catch things that would fall out of the sky for hours and I could see them sometimes but never catch them. Now I am in a major city and cannot leave my home. I am an only child and feel like I am going to stay where my mind takes me forever sometimes and the medicines are losing their ability to help.
Please remember:
"It's Not Okay to Ask Me If I'm Okay"
Unless you know someone and they do not suffer from a condition similar to mine then please do not ask them.
No one takes us seriously and it only spreads the mocking of our conditions.
I stay away from people but I feel even more lost without my field to sit in.
My parents suggested a support group and thought it would help but but I can't find any after "trying" to fit in on my other account.
I always ended up just being myself.
If you don't know about this condition it's like a shape shifting virus in that my mind's reality which shifts periodically in multiple stages and states of divergence at once.
Sometimes it is slow, sometimes it is fast, sometimes velocity is modulating from a control source unknown.
If I'm not someone or something that you can relate to please feel free to point me in the right direction.
I'm not going to a psychology based sub. The clinicians and technicians keep telling me to see a neurologist or a neuropsychologist or psychiatrists and I've seen them all my life and I've been labeled "therapy-resistant" hence the esketamine nasal sprays.
Each mental health professional has given me a different diagnosis and a different batch of assorted medicine that just make me tired and over weight and sleep most of the day.
I dream of a world that will accommodate my condition.
I dream of a world within a world where I can be well again.
Until that day happens I can only deal day to day with my issues. I have lost so much and so many people and potential friends because I am me. I do not hurt people. I am not dangerous. I do not understand why people can't accept me for what I am. I am all that I am and nothing more and nothing less-maybe. I don't think I need more meds.
I need more acceptance.
Every time I try to fit in I inevitably become myself and the protective layers I build to construct a composite of myself that seems socially acceptable, something or someone triggers break me and brick by brick my protective layers crumble to dust.
"It's Not Okay to Ask Us if We're Okay."
Thank you in advance for any suggestions, kind words, etc. I am going sane and that is not where I want to go until I am okay. I see what "sane people have done to our world, our society, to each other.
Cognitive behavioral therapy, Mindfulness, Dialectic Behavioral Therapy, Psilocybin micro dosing, atpyical anti-psychotics, mood stabilizers, anti-depressants, prescribed amphetamines, vodka, pot, nothing helps.
I don't understand and feel paranoid or metanoid but paralyzed to do anything about it.
I'm desperate and dosed. I know lots of stuff about a lot of things and if I can maintain focus then I will not drift.
Thank you all in advance. I can answer any questions as long as they are not yes or no questions or anything binary.
It sets me off and it happens all over again. Thanks for the respect.
(edited because it was late and being alone it was hard to be coherent and reading it today I saw it maybe needed adjustments)
[Image: http://img3.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20140...ington.jpg]
Lol. This was a "thought" experiment I posted before the COVID-AI thing broke out. Imagine if laws were accommodated for the "mentally divergent." There would be no need for a 3rd bathroom. They would just hallucinate one and have laws to protect them from pooping in their bosses coffee cup on a desk because of their "condition."
This oozing insanity that was once only in the mind (it's okay to be screwed up) made it's way out and into the actual laws. I can get sued for assuming gender?
Someone can get sued for asking be a binary question! lol
This is why there must be "order" restored. The Adjustment Bureau....
