12-12-2018, 05:08 PM
I go by emmy and this is the longest year of my life story story. This is also why I got led to the point of my thyroid story and why I dont fuck with abusive manipulative fuckers. This is why I demand respect and why I want to live a good life. This is why I will never be with a guy that will ever put me in the same position but I owe it to myself to live and be young and properly date someone that will bring me up. I am one day write or share somehow a better version of my story but here it is so far- enjoy fucker..... I really do love you guys
It started when I heard the news that no big sister wanted to hear. I heard my little cousin was hospitalized for attempting suicide. Since at that time I never had a brother, my cousins were the closest ones to me. Since I was previously suicidal, those were never the words a big sister wanted to hear. I knew though that I needed to stay strong for him so I went to a boy that I never knew. I heard of him since he was a neighbor but we never met. That night I called him and went to buy Xanax and he asked me why I bought it? I thought that was weird and oddly kind of him so I sat down with him and started venting. He told me I didn’t need that negativity and he honestly helped me then. I wound up flushing the Xanax down the toilet that night and started to think about how handsome he was. He would send me the sweetest messages and came in a time of vulnerability but I was instantly hooked to him. I would go to him before school and we would spend our mornings drinking Starbucks and talking about our lives. He would go on and tell me of his damaged childhood and I instantly felt sorry for him. He was broken but full of this “wisdom” that had me drawn to him. He would tell me he was some sort of healer and his calling in life was to heal people. I thought that was the most amazing thing- he turned something ugly to something beautiful.
Its funny because looking back he wasn’t really my type. He was short, chubby, and very fucking arrogant. I like smooth but not that smooth. That summer was the best summer of my life but thats all it was. A summer dream. It wasn’t till his friend came into the picture that my fairytale was disappearing. His friend came into the picture and they started using drugs together. At first I was sheep and I did not want my prince charming to leave so I convinced myself that I was ok with it. When I finally asked him to stop did. He stopped from what I seen but then little did I know he was doing it behind my back. I was so fucking naive. The only thing I was into was weed and he convinced me to try acid. It was magical at first, made me see the world differently. He convinced me that he wanted me to do acid with him so he as a healer can work me through my past trauma. He said the only way I could would be to force his dick into my ass (no lube) because that would make us closer. It makes me sick just thinking of that. FYI before you go on a witch hunt- hes not apart of this and this is my way of shedding this darkness.
He use to manipulate me with the song YMF by ab soul- it makes me angry to this day because I fuck with ab soul
4 things about me
i hate when people ask me if im ok over and over- if im ok ill say so, if im not i will say im not
i hate people that manipulate
i am fully moved on from lover boy
i am really not looking on taking everyones problems right now- tbh i dont really care
To be continued….
It started when I heard the news that no big sister wanted to hear. I heard my little cousin was hospitalized for attempting suicide. Since at that time I never had a brother, my cousins were the closest ones to me. Since I was previously suicidal, those were never the words a big sister wanted to hear. I knew though that I needed to stay strong for him so I went to a boy that I never knew. I heard of him since he was a neighbor but we never met. That night I called him and went to buy Xanax and he asked me why I bought it? I thought that was weird and oddly kind of him so I sat down with him and started venting. He told me I didn’t need that negativity and he honestly helped me then. I wound up flushing the Xanax down the toilet that night and started to think about how handsome he was. He would send me the sweetest messages and came in a time of vulnerability but I was instantly hooked to him. I would go to him before school and we would spend our mornings drinking Starbucks and talking about our lives. He would go on and tell me of his damaged childhood and I instantly felt sorry for him. He was broken but full of this “wisdom” that had me drawn to him. He would tell me he was some sort of healer and his calling in life was to heal people. I thought that was the most amazing thing- he turned something ugly to something beautiful.
Its funny because looking back he wasn’t really my type. He was short, chubby, and very fucking arrogant. I like smooth but not that smooth. That summer was the best summer of my life but thats all it was. A summer dream. It wasn’t till his friend came into the picture that my fairytale was disappearing. His friend came into the picture and they started using drugs together. At first I was sheep and I did not want my prince charming to leave so I convinced myself that I was ok with it. When I finally asked him to stop did. He stopped from what I seen but then little did I know he was doing it behind my back. I was so fucking naive. The only thing I was into was weed and he convinced me to try acid. It was magical at first, made me see the world differently. He convinced me that he wanted me to do acid with him so he as a healer can work me through my past trauma. He said the only way I could would be to force his dick into my ass (no lube) because that would make us closer. It makes me sick just thinking of that. FYI before you go on a witch hunt- hes not apart of this and this is my way of shedding this darkness.
He use to manipulate me with the song YMF by ab soul- it makes me angry to this day because I fuck with ab soul
4 things about me
i hate when people ask me if im ok over and over- if im ok ill say so, if im not i will say im not
i hate people that manipulate
i am fully moved on from lover boy
i am really not looking on taking everyones problems right now- tbh i dont really care
To be continued….
